I Needed to Know that He is Always There

Today, I do not doubt for one second that I am the righteousness of God in Christ.

In fact, I was taught about this early on in 2008, and preachers like Joyce Meyer even encouraged me to look for examples of all the blessings accorded to me in the Bible because of my status as righteous in Christ.

The problem was that I looked at my feelings as the final source of righteousness.

That is not the source of our peace or standing before God.

The Word of God declares who we are.

Still, I have been going on about my status in Christ Jesus, and I have learned so much about my new identity in Christ.

Yet I was still concerned about the future.

I knew that I was going to heaven. I knew that He was my Daddy, even.

Yet I still had this weird lingering pain about the future, and I was constantly fighting with fears in my head - how do you know that He will be there for you tomorrow?

Then I would feel guilty and upset about those emotions, and struggle to get out of them.

What is the answer to all of these emotions? How do these struggles end?

Well, let's consider that Paul went through all of these hurts and setbacks himself:

"14For we know that the law is spiritual: but I am carnal, sold under sin. 15For that which I do I allow not: for what I would, that do I not; but what I hate, that do I. 16If then I do that which I would not, I consent unto the law that it is good. 17Now then it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. 18For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not. 19For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do. 20Now if I do that I would not, it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me." (Romans 7: 14-20)

I -- I -- I -- I. Aye Aye Aye!

We need to get out of looking at ourselves, and seeing how little we measure up in so many things.

The answer lies in the first verse of the next chapter:

There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus" (Romans 8: 1)

That's all there is to it.

Now, looking full circle at this conflict in my life, I find that even though I knew that I was made the righteousness of God in Christ, I recognize that I did not understand how deep this righteousness delved and seeped into my life.

Now I do.

The fight is still on, but we are called now to fight the good fight of faith in which we believe all the good promised by Christ Jesus, accomplished for us at the Cross.

As for the questions about whether He would be there or not, now I understand today that that fight rested on the wrong believing that His presence in my life depended on how I felt or what I was thinking.

Done.