How I do not have the hurts and fears of days, months, and even years past.
I had spent so much time and trouble fighting with negative emotions, angry about what I had endured from difficult, abusive people, and all the setbacks which seemed to have cost me so much.
In many cases, when I finally looked back, I never lost anything which God had not later restored.
Whatever we may lose, even time as well as space or resources, our loving Father restores to us!
Every time!
So, it's no longer about what is actually happening in our lives, but what we believe.
We either we believe the truth or we do not.
When I met painful hurts or past recriminations, I started asking myself "What is it that I do not know, that I need to know?"
Recently, though, I have begun to see that its not just about what I know, but also the things that I "knew" which simply were not true.
So much of the garbage which I had been taught--and believed--from Alcoholic Anonymous created the hurt and pain in my mind.
There is no doubt about it: Alcoholics is a destructive mind-controlling cult.
There is no higher power that I choose. There is the "group conscience" undermined by the loudest, most abusive sponsors telling everyone else what they must believe.
What a crock.
The AA cult teaches people that they have to walk in lock step with "God's Will" or they waste their time and day in the world.
The AA cult teaches us to keep looking at ourselves, to see what is wrong with us, and to keep labeling ourselves "alcoholics."
I constantly feared raising my voice and standing up to people.
I worried that if I did something wrong, then God would not bless me, or that he would pull the rug out from beneath me.
Yet God does not bless us because we are good.
He blesses us because He is good, and because His Beloved Son died for us, and lives for us to this day!
"10For this is the covenant that I will make with the house of Israel after those days, saith the Lord; I will put my laws into their mind, and write them in their hearts: and I will be to them a God, and they shall be to me a people:
11And they shall not teach every man his neighbour, and every man his
brother, saying, Know the Lord: for all shall know me, from the least to the
greatest.
12For I will be merciful to their unrighteousness, and their sins and
their iniquities will I remember no more" (Hebrews 8:10-12)
No one had taught me this!
NO ONE!
Now I know the truth, and the lies that had held me back have been swept away.
It was not about what I needed to know, as much as I needed to recognize what was a LIE!
Thank you, Jesus, for the Truth who sets me free!