This revelation is so much for me.
I just wish I could write about it, talk about it, share it with as many people as I can.
I am not living in my head anymore.
For so long, I treated God as a figment, a feature, a fixture of my mind, my thinking, my imagination.
I was so consumed with making sure that I was thinking the right thoughts, the right ideas, the right deeds, that I was just obsessed with getting bad thoughts, feelings, ideas out of my head.
If I had negative, painful memories starting to well up within me, I would feel compelled to fight with my head, to argue with those past premotions, with this impressions and notions that would well up in my mind, my soul, my memory.
For the longest time, I really treated Daddy God as though He existed or was present to me as long as I was feeling a certain way or thinking a certain way.
Such a life was absolute bondage for me.
For the last week, Daddy God has been opening the eyes of my heart (Ephesians 1:18).
It has been really something.
I am starting to understand fully the promises of this wonderful verse:
"Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee." (Isaiah 26:3)
God is OUTSIDE of our minds! Yet for years, I was acting as though I had to keep my thoughts in place on the INSIDE of my mind.
Resting my mind on Daddy God is really easy, since my loving Father is everywhere, and His Son Jesus holds the universe together, everything in it (Colossians 1:15-16).
It's easy for us to rest in Him! He is on the job!
He has cut a New Covenant for us, in which He is our God, and we are His people!
"10For this is the covenant that I will make with the house of Israel after those days, saith the Lord; I will put my laws into their mind, and write them in their hearts: and I will be to them a God, and they shall be to me a people:
"11And they shall not teach every man his neighbour, and every man his brother, saying, Know the Lord: for all shall know me, from the least to the greatest.
"12For I will be merciful to their unrighteousness, and their sins and their iniquities will I remember no more." (Hebrews 8:10-12)
This is so simple! What it means to live by grace is really something to me. I am so grateful, Father, that You have continued to open my eyes to see YOU!
"We walk by faith, not by sight." (2 Corinthians 5:7)
Faith is not fantasy, imagination, or a unique way of thinking. Faith is about recognizing what is true and eternal, even though our physical eyes cannot see or sense what is so.
Today, I realize the great joy of being at rest in my mind.
I also understand why I would suddenly experience such incredible bouts of relief when I would cry out to God for help: I was not looking inside of myself, inside of my mind, to find respite.
I was not trying to hold on via my head, my thinking, my thoughts, my cogitations. I was resting and calling out to Daddy God for help! I was acting in faith, talking to Him clearly, without reserve or reservation.
That's what faith is about. It's not about living in our heads, but getting out of our heads, thinking about Himself, not ourselves. We believe in a living God, and He loves us fully!
I am so grateful, and my mind is slowly but surely abandoning outrage, upset, and tumult. This is truly wonderful, all of it!