I realized more and more that I kept treating Jesus too small. I put him in my head, when the truth is that he is outside of our heads and holding everything together.
Perfect peace is about us leaning into Him.
I kept thinking that I had to make sure that I was thinking about Him, to ensure that He would take care of me. I had too small an understanding of my Heavenly Father.
Over the past two months, I have received a larger and larger revelation of how big He is. Thank you, Daddy God, for being so patient with me as you reveal more of yourself to me.
I see now to what extent You are taking care of me. I realize that I have been still depending too much on myself. I was too busy thinking that I had to do "my part" in order for you to do your part. How wrong I was!
I kept thinking that I had to do everything myself because you were not on the job, or that it made me irresponsible. Bulk. Keep in enlightening the eyes of my heart!
It all makes perfect sense to me. We have to ask the Holy Spirit to enlighten the eyes of our hearts, because all the thinking, all the reasoning, all the internal mental discernment is not enough, cannot make it possible for us to see how big our loving, Heavenly Father really is. We simply cannot understand how great his efforts are to help us if we do not read His Word and take as truth the testimonies that He is on our side.
All this time, I was so busy thinking that I had to "do something" in order to see God and to be able to depend on him. I need to depend Him on everything. I need to depend on Him even when I think that I do not need to depend on Him on something.
Thank you, Lord, for your patience with me. AMEN!
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